Sky, God and the feel

After a lot of days I went up the terrace and was gazing at the sky. I always was awed at the sheer magnitude of the starry canopy of God’s canvas above me. Millions of stars twinkling at me. Awesome sight. There was an urge to find out what is behind all this. Behind the stars I mean, The stars always used to look like small holes in the great canvas. The feeling was that there is an unending source of light behind the “sky” and the “stars” are showing us a glimpse of the light behind.

And that got me to the question – If the sky is so big, beyond my wildest imagination, how big should God be? Beats imagination. The closest I got to this answer was when I read Isaac Asimov’s book (not sure of the name, though). Not to disclose the climax, the hero finally pops out of the universe after a long, longer, longest saga. The story offered a glimpse into the size of the universe. The next brush with the topic was when I tried interpreting the “Purusha Suktam”. The hymns from the Vedas talk about the creation of the universe how the God is positioned in eternity. The explanation offered is that the God is so huge that the whole universe as we know it, is just a third of Him. And that that the whole universe is just a an eye to the God (Vishwaksham). The description that the many faceted God has one feet in the past and one feet in the present and one in future is enough to fuel the imagination. What we understand of the God we know is nothing compared to what He really is.

It is an awesome feeling trying NOT to ask Him of anything – Health, Wealth, Seats in colleges, Forgiveness, Thanks etc. We humans see Him as someone who is like us. We bend before Him and postulate before Him. But the feeling of imagining Him being assembled as a package called “Me” is something more exhilarating. Me and I am God and God is me. And I am one with the entire Universe in one Omkara. This feeling is akin to explaining the taste of Honey to a person who has never tasted Honey. Try and try, the feeling can never be explained.

And finally, the twin feeling of what I feel when I see the sky - The feeling of being small and insignificant. (Not a feeling of being belittled, no confusion please!) Compared to the whole wide sky, I am so small and insignificant, my worries are far smaller and more insignificant. And then, why the heck am I making it look so big,  that the whole wide universe begins to look small?